Fat People Only

Alright I've shared my size with the interworld, so I'm sure you can imagine how voluptuously delicious I look in a bathing suit?  Eh Eh?  :D

I love to swim!  Abso-freaking-lutely love to swim.  As a kid my family always had a pool, and most of my summer nights were spent splashing around with my friends in my back yard while we discussed everything from boys to hair to school to boys lol.  I have had some pretty cute swimsuits in my time, but I have to admit that while I'm comfortable with my body, I feel like a beached whale at the pool/beach.  I have ALWAYS been chunky.  The thinnest I have ever been was when I was 14, and I was ironically enough a size 14.  Although I was that size my butt and thighs were still like outta control lol, like watch the heck out Beyonce!  Even though I've always been a thick lady I love wearing bikini's, and no I don't wear them now- I want to leave a LITTLE something to the imagination!  I just can't seem to find a swim suit to emphasise my features that makes me feel confident enough to go to the pool with my husband and kids.  I feel like I'm on display there, like OK YEAH YEAH THERE'S A FAT GIRL AT THE POOL!  GET OVER IT!  I mean geesh.  I come there for a good time with my family, and I just want to have fun- not get gawked at.  There should be a "Fats Only" pool.  I mean we could invite in our close family and friends with us lol.  I know what you're thinking "she needs to work out and eat healthy".  I do!  The problem is that I love healthy food AND junk food lol  I don't discriminate between food groups people!  Do any of you ladies and gents out there feel self confident at the pool?  How do you deal with those feelings?